Is it time to kill myself?

No, it's not time to kill yourself.

Listen:

I've had a similar experience growing up. I used to feel incredibly depressed and miserable, and I wasn't sure why. Honestly, I had a lot of good friends, but for some reason, I always felt incredibly alone. Even in their presence; I loved them and cared for them, but I still felt really lonely. I felt like I didn't belong. I regularly cut myself, and cried myself to sleep. It got pretty bad and I had to go through therapy.

I don't know what to tell you about your no friend situation...maybe try to be less clingy? All I know is, I'm glad I didn't kill myself. Life gets better if you make it better.

What do you want? To be happy, right?

So go MAKE yourself happy. Try your best to make friends. Try your best to keep them. Try different hobbies. Do things that make you happy. Perhaps you sing or dance or draw or cook?

If you kill yourself, you're giving up.

Don't give up and keep going after what you want: happiness.

Killing yourself is never the answer, no matter who you are some one will care. You need to exclude that idea from your mind, if you are all those things above, you just need to go and see a psychiatrist, tell them how you feel. You'll be surprised, it might be a past experience making you 'clingy' and 'needy' . If you also talk to your parents it might help you a lot, your parents bothered to raise you, and I can assure you, if they wanted you out of this world they wouldn't have brought you up. You sound a bit on edge. If you find an understanding and loving person I think you could easily have a relationship. Just stay calm and remember that this world has kept you out of harms' way, and under no circumstances will want to take you out of it this early. Hope this helps. You sound like you just need some assurance. And I assure you. Killing yourself won't solve anything.

No!

You have a whole life ahead of you, why rob yourself the chance for things to get better?

You could have described me here with your feelings, but you are growing, learning and things can be amazing! Unless you're dead.

Be kind you yourself, practice self care, and know that you are important and valued, if not so much by those around you now, then by the people you are yet to meet, people who may love and understand your "neediness "

Massive hugs, deep breaths, keep on living and love yourself most when you feel you don't deserve it xxx