Who am I supposed to be if I can't be myself?

Try to work on your negative flaws a bit. You shouldn't be anyone but yourself because you can never really be friends with somebody if they don't know who you really are.

I'm 23 and I'm at the same boat.

I'm too realistic for my friends. If someone I know meets a new guy, I'm the first to warn you about not getting your hopes us since the last 9 guys didn't work.

Or if someone I know is going spiraling down life, telling them that "hey maybe you shouldn't go bar hoping and miss two days of work giving you a 4 day weekend is probably going to get you fired." I realized if people don't respect you or your thoughts they are truly irrelevant.

I also don't like to hang out with my friends other friends. They almost always tend to be completely idiotic and cant hold a decent conversation. I don't like to party so I can't relate to stories of being wasted or how crazy getting their dui was. I also sometime wish I had a shiity education so I can tolerate the people around me.

I only have my boyfriend and 2 friend whom I've known since 5 years old.

It makes you more frustrated trying to find someone who can tolerate you, focus on making money.

well, if you can't be yourself then be someone you need to be. If you need someone who is loving and supportive then be that person.if you need someone who gets angry and keeps you on track be that person. But be that person for yourself. Be your own best friend. Love yourself and others will too. Pretend or at least attempt to be be someone you look up to and then try talking to someone you're familiar with or have known or haven't even spoken to. Try it. Trust me that from all the people that you have known you'll meet someone who wants you there, who appreciates you. Someone who can support you and sees your insecurities as something that make you who you are, as someone mentally stronger than you once thought. You'll find great friends who like you being around for a long time. Sorry if this doesn't help you. But you'll do good. Trust me.

You need to relax.